Apply Apply Apply damnit!

I have to Apply. Apply Apply Apply. sigh. i will start taking my lunch at uni and stay back a couple of hours each day cz i need to FOCUS! and memories are distracting me, and doubts are distracting me, and no routine is distracting me and that darned Harry potter is distracting me! so yes i need to stop everything and give it all a break this week and just apply away.

Pray for me please. i want this more than anything in the world.