random facts.

sometimes i forget my age.

most times i feel like i am sleepwalking through life. like i am in a haze i cant snap out of.

i forget events, what i said, what they said.

i hate repeatedly explaining myself after the first unsuccessful time i generally have given up on gaining any understanding.

i expect people to automatically know my intentions, which are usually good, for the record.

i get fixated on things in my own head for no reason.

i used to dislike myself when i was a teenager and would beat myself up, till i learnt not to care.

by myself, i cry on anything that hints at emotional cz i feel moved to the core. yet, i am the most hard hearted person i know.

i follow a very strong sense of right or wrong.. which comes as a result of what i think is justified, and what i feel is not. and i mostly do things i should.. not what i feel like, or can.

i scare my close friends. i think.. all of them.

i am very open and friendly naturally when i am around people. but i think i am more me when i am alone and thinking.

of all things, i hate arguments the most. i would do anything, disappear if i could, to avoid arguments.

i have a really bad, really mean, really disregarding, totally insulting and demeaning anger when i feel its justified. yeah i think thats what scares them.

i feel a lot but i am unemotional too.. maybe my switch is off.