Haunted

I want to be.. haunted. prayed upon sickened to my core and still go on. i have a mountain of patience. all this has shown me i can be dying and hold my breathe just a bit longer.. that i can freeze myself against this all and suffocate in my cucoon yes. that i can let it all go so it scatters.. in inconsequential peices that will never fit, never complete the puzzle.

He messaged. haunted. I cared. i really cared. i really truly always cared and i cant stop caring now..

wtf really..