the real difference.

Reserved Kindness. Reserved sincerity. Quotas worth of trust and love. We all change in time rendering the sincerity, the affection the love of the moment meaningless. That is why i dont want to believe, to expect. That is why I dont want to be so sad when you go away. The reason why i dont- wont let you know whats precious to me beyond the now and the present. That is why i used to think that this all doesnt matter and the minute we both come to light, standing in Stark differences, ideas, thoughts, philosophies. It becomes so clear.

Salvation. I want thoughts and words to be able to nurse my heart. not now. i dont need it. not when i dont think much. later..

And you were so right.. its no ones damned business. all our own.