Z..

We went to see ayesha's mom and i wanted to cry with her, for all the times i avoid crying/thinking/feeling. But with her it would be alright.

If it has happened it must be right. It must be justified, but i am missing the whole point. I miss her doesnt begin to define what I feel. misery.

Coversation with Z. She lost her father.. If she can, younger than me by two years but a whole lot placid, believe this, so can I.

Z: You know that cliche
Z: for a person who's passed away
Z: that they're at a better place
Z: it really is that way
Z: and i think you start to miss them more when you believe this
Z: and the sooner you do accept the fact.. the better you feel about all of this
Z: i believe that whenever you think of someone
Z: they can somehow hear you
Z: feel you
Z: and trust me girl when you cry for them
Z: they feel that too
Z: and it hurts them
Z: can't you feel her around you?
Z: she IS looking after you
Z: she can see n feel all that you want her to see
Z: and when you start believing this
Z: and start believing that her passing is just a passing from this world to the other
Z: then she will be able to speak to you
H: you are positive of that?
Z: i know that for a fact
Z: people i tell this to think im going crazy
Z: but you have to just experience it once
H: i dont think its crazy at all..
Z: it isnt
Z: for me at least
Z: what are you?
Z: a person?
Z: you are just a spirit
Z: the soul
Z: the only difference right now between you and your friend ayesha
Z: is that you have a body through which you connect to this world
Z: and she has a power through which she can connect to two different worlds
Z: we are caged while we're in this world
Z: you should be happy that she is free now
Z: our life.. its a punishment
Z: we were sent here so that our souls could be purified
Z: as long as we're in THIS world
Z: we're being punished
Z: because our souls [the real being] are not free
Z: because we're caged
Z: but once we get rid of it
Z: once there is an absense of the so-called physical being
Z: you actually gain your freedom
Z: that is why all the good people die early

..and that is why all the good people die early..