so thats what those insane ones have been ranting about all along..

I allowed myself to open up today. I allowed myself to change, and to develop. I allowed myself to look for and explore and experience information and sources i denounced or didnt cant for before. i allowed myself a purely spiritual path,of looking and observing and noticing, signs all over the place. and the world, the whole universe, each and every part of it started speaking to me, in the most inate most basic language. it started talking so factually, yet only when i looked at those things, when those things sensed that they had my attention did they start speaking.

things i thought were bullshit, are they for real? they seem to be.

it feels like i am opening up to a purity, a spirituality, that we shun because it defies the laws of physics and bodies and the five sense as we know and understand them. it closes our minds these text books. it disrupts our vision, the vastness that we hold in our ability to see and understand and breath in volumes upon volumes of information from inanimate objects, from the ground the signs, the plants the leaves, the stone, that person who looked at me twice, the person who sensed me and moved to give me way, everything.

i can see it, i can feel it. i dont need a language or words to communicate, i can sense it, and that same inate sensual language i can understand as i seek it and i look for it more and more.

i cant believe i denied myself this life for so long. i cant believe i did not even allow that side of me to come out and play. i cant believe that i never used it. i cant believe that i didnt care.. TO SEE.